Dreams

When the question hits you, "What are your dreams?" what will you say?

I will say that..

I want to become an Astronaut.

I want to become an Art Director.

I want to become a Astrophotographer.

I want to become a Humanitarian.

I want to become a Missionary.

I want to be a Visionary.

I want to have a happy family.

I want to help many people, as many as I can.

I want to use my talent, knowledge, wisdom, finances to help.

I want to do great things for God.

I want to achieve as many things as possible.

I want to have a family of my own.

I want to have children.

I want to have grand children.

I want my children's children to have the same drive as me.

I want my children's children to carry on my legacy.

I want to have a life that could make a big difference in this world.

My ultimate dream is having my family to come to church with me.

That is my dream.

I dreamed to build a life that I will never regret, a life lived to the fullest. What about you?

(though I might not be able to complete it, but at least I had em' listed!)

Christmas

This year's Christmas was kinda solemn and quiet. I think it was really a great way to end the year.. Kinda like the relaxing period and the quiet joy of the season.

Candlelight service (which was way awesome and touching and emotional), Christmas Service and the last service of the year was really great! Come to think of it, when Pastor Kong asked for Key A to be played, tears run down my eyes and I started thinking back of the whole year.

It has been a difficult and tiring year. Striving hard in my studies and sacrificing lots of sleep and even health to gain better results. Physically, Mentally and Spiritually drained. Family issues kept repeating over and over again. Financial issues never changed.

But when it comes to december, everything seemed to turn around. I've improved my GPA by 0.5, my parents are now even going out together to have lunch. Though I'm physically and mentally tired and drained, but spiritually, I felt a breakthrough. Financially, my Dad has been really generous this month.

Paying for my overloaded phone bill, giving me extra when he already said I shouldn't have any, even asking me about which phone do I want next year and of course the overseas trip that he allowed me to go.

Throughout Camp Believe as a team leader, I've learned a lot. Really a lot!

God is gracious. Even though sometimes it is pretty irritating and annoying to be tested by God, but without tests, I'll never breakthrough. Tiring, draining and difficult year has finally ended strong. Breakthroughs among breakthroughs has happened. Miracles happened.

Thank God for this Christmas to be so ..different!

The first resolution is to gain back good health and to get more outers/jackets/hoodies

I WANT

Michael Jackson OPUS Book: This book contains rare and unpublished photos! Full biography about Michael Jackson and also contains some other special multimedia and videos of him. I want!!!

Ray-Ban Aviators: This is the pair of sunglasses that Michael Jackson loves to wear. I want!!!

Okay, just feeling crazy about it. LOL

This Is It MV

Oh man, this is so cool! Spike Lee really done a great job editing the whole MV. I love the nostalgia feel, so emotional. Michael Jackson ftw!

Michael's This Is It Jackets

What a waste! How I wished I could see him on these set of clothing on stage.

I believe.

Two months ago, I told God that I wanted something challenging. I felt that I am becoming stagnant. I told Him to throw me any kind of challenge to make me grow, stretching my faith and capacity.

Two months later, when I first heard of the camp, I was asked to design the promo card. So I thought to myself.. Ah, this must be the big challenge! Designing a promo card for the upcoming camp for the whole of ET Zone looks like a big challenge for me.

God indeed had something up his sleeves (not that he has sleeves). One fine day as I was happily surfing the net, I received a MSN message from Jared. "You will be a team leader for the camp."

And I replied, "Oh, ok."

I took a step back and thought to myself, "OH SNAP."

I wasn't ready at all. I am a introvert, I am someone that doesn't become 'high' or able to hype up a crowd, I felt that I am not up to the standard of being a team leader. I feared and I prayed harder than before. I kept telling myself, I have to step out from my introvert self and really do my best in leading a team.

Leading a team of more than 20 members was a big challenge to me! I was never able to talk to a big crowd. I have no good sense of direction at all which made things worse. Happy and glad to have WENDY TOH to be my assistant! Thank God that I have a extrovert assistant! I'm glad that she really helped me out in every other thing that I missed out. I couldn't imagine what would happen if I don't have an assistant like that.

Through the camp, I came to know many new faces. Many people that I never knew they existed neither they knew I existed. Two days before the actual camp, we all met up to design the placard for the team and a team identity. Through these, our team really bonded well! I am very happy that all of us really became good friends almost instantly!

I truly felt that we are all more than a team but we are like a family! I mean, even though we may be the last team throughout, but we've gained great friends! Friends that we all knew that would last for an eternity. Through the camp, we've really played till our best. Our teamwork was really awesome and brilliant!

I hope that through the things that I done in the camp for them would somehow leave a good impression. No, more than a good impression, I want them to know that even an introvert like me could do things that I never thought I would do!

Once again, if anyone of you from Team Commando read this, thank you. I am very honored and privileged to be your team leader. Also, I feel very sorry that I've let you guys down! I hope that we will not remember about us being the last but remembering us like a family, our encounters with God through the night sessions. From the bottom of my heart, I love you guys!

What if.

Jesus could've just suddenly become some macho man and break the cross than to get crucified while people do not appreciate what he did.

He heals the sick and let the blind see, He even rose the dead, why couldn't He break the cross and come down for himself? It is because of His graciousness, His love for us, His thoughts of having all of us being redeemed, salvaged from hell. He knew, if he died for our sins, we then could have a chance of being saved.

I felt that at that point of time, He wished that everybody would just listen. His heart burdens for all of us! How could God ever think that He doesn't want you to be with Him in heaven? Even I do! His heart must've been aching when He was on the cross.

People just don't appreciate what he had done. The truth is in front of you, beside you, behind you, it is everywhere. Everyone had a choice, just like He did. He could've done what the picture has depicted, breaking the cross and save Himself, but He didn't.

Appreciate what you have and what you know and do it.

(Picture from tumblr ;D )

The Moon.

"For most people, we often marvel at the beauty of a sunrise or the magnificence of a full moon, but it is impossible to fathom the magnitude of the universe that surrounds us." ~Richard H. Baker

Burden

You might not believe it but, my heart burdens for you. My heart burdens for YOU! As in every single person I know. As long as you know me, as long as you take me as a friend, my heart burdens for you.

Just like the picture above, I want to hold your hand and tell you, "I'm here to help".

That is what friends should be doing! That is what humanity should be doing!

We should be united. With unity, we can do far. With God, we can do more than we think. With unity in God, we can do ALL things.

Do you ever have the feeling of being so useless because you couldn't help that certain someone?

Do you care for the world, what is happening all around the world?

Do you care for your friends, for what they had been going through or had gone through?

Do you still care for the people around you?

Do you still love? Not only in yourself but what about others?

I'd aways remember, "It is WHO are we here for and not WHY".

Stop being selfish and learn to live for others!

My Leader

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JARED!

Thank you so much and I am very privileged to be able to be in W212. We all thank you for all your sacrifices that you've made! You've sacrificed not only your finances but you've sacrificed your time too. We thank you for all the emotional support, spiritual support and as well as mental support.

You have always been an inspiration for me. W212 is my family and you are the head of this family!

If we include in our thanksgiving award, you'll definitely be in all of it (not the spoof ones of course!).

Thank you for being so generous.

Thank you for being so heart warming.

Thank you for being so patient.

Thank you for being so loving.

Thank you for EVERYTHING!

Hope you'll enjoy the last month of 2009!

Challenge.

I've once prayed to God to throw me a challenge to stretch my capacity and it happened. I'm gonna be a Team Leader for the upcoming camp. I hope I can do it. I must be prepared for it. I can do it, with God on my side.

Camp Believe, shall be the time where I can be challenged and be transformed. I believe.

Square Root of Three

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

Anxious.

"In the multitude of my [anxious] thoughts within me, Your comforts cheer and delight my soul!" ~Psalm 94:19

It's difficult but I just gotta keep going.